Journey's End Ramblings and other Bits
Jul. 6th, 2008 08:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ellefliesI'm leaving for Rome tomorrow (and to think, I just got back from Ireland yesterday) so I wanted to get this out before I threw myself into another flight full of Atlantic crossings and boys in uniform.
Anyways, that's the lead up to me being... not okay. So very not okay.
I think my biggest issue is The Doctor. Not the Blue!Doctor or 10.5 or whatever other names people are coming up for him, but the actual Doctor. I want to be happy for Rose and his doppelganger, I really really do, but I keep hitting the brick wall of "but the Doctor is alone and broken."
I'm not sure how I'm supposed to get over that or how I'm supposed to reconcile Rose's happiness with his pain.
And then there's Donna, one of the best companions The Doctor ever had. She was just what he needed so of course he couldn't have her either. Cold comfort to know that your best friend lives but doesn't remember you or what she did for you. Same goes for Rose, I guess. It's all cold comfort, which seems to me to be no comfort at all. I can't hate The Doctor for what he did to Donna, she didn't want it, but he didn't want her dead. Better to not remember and live the fantastic life (all that character development! Just gone! Ugh) then have no life at all. Better for him to know that at least she's alive even though he's lost her too.
There should be rules for companions. Rule Number 1 should be never tell the Doctor Forever. It won't happen. Notice that Martha, who made no promises, managed to walk away from all of that...
What really gets me is that quite a bit of this Ten did to himself. He makes the hard choices, he makes the plans, he tells people what to do and he's absolutely convinced that if anyone is going to sacrifice anything or be alone, then it has to be him. The Doctor is far too familiar with sacrifice, always has been methinks and I'm wondering if the Time Lords knew that little factoid and used it to get him to be the one to press the button and sacrifice his entire world and people.
There were many things to think about in this episode.
Like the fact that RTD seems rather fond of using characters and props that were just lying around and working them into the script as major plot points. You can't tell me when the Doctor first got his hand lopped off that RTD said "aha, we'll lop off his hand and down the road we'll turn it into a new Doctor! Perfect!" And the Face of Boe as Jack... Puh-lease.
All I asked of RTD for this episode was for Rose to live and for my little shippy heart to not be broken into pieces. She lived and regardless of the fact that she has A Doctor with her, my shippy heart is quite shattered. I'm just now trying to figure out how to put it back together again.
And this is the part where people point fingers and call me a bit of a hypocrite for writing up reactions when I have seen the episode yet. (In the interests of full disclosure, I have also never seen Doomsday nor Last of the Time Lords. Someday I may watch Doomsday, but I think Tinkerbell!Doctor is enough to put me off the other one.)
In fact, I haven't seen much of season 4 at all. I tend to wait till a season is done before I watch something as I don't care to be an emotional wreck waiting for the next episode, which ironically enough, happened anyways. I'm completely spoiled for everything that happened and even though![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
regala_electra tried (she being the one to spoil me) there are just some opinions of mine she can't sway. She knows which ones those are *g*
With the whole spoiling thing, you wouldn't believe how difficult it was for me to find out what happened: My Aer Lingus flight from Shannon, Ireland wasn't even done landing yet and I had my phone out and was leaving desperate messages onregala_electra's cellphone asking to know what happened, as I didn't think I'd be able to survive the 45 minute bus ride home with all that suspense hanging over my head. I had fully intended to spoil myself rotten in Limerick but "high winds" had knocked out the internet service for the entire region and as it was a Sunday, they weren't expecting it to be fixed until Monday. I coped by foisting three seasons of Doctor Who off on a pilot who expressed a remote amount of interest in the show. He learned to fear the power of Fangirls that day.
And then there's this bit of completely random: Russel T. Davies thinks Amy Winehouse would make a great Doctor
Make of that what you will.
Anyways, that's the lead up to me being... not okay. So very not okay.
I think my biggest issue is The Doctor. Not the Blue!Doctor or 10.5 or whatever other names people are coming up for him, but the actual Doctor. I want to be happy for Rose and his doppelganger, I really really do, but I keep hitting the brick wall of "but the Doctor is alone and broken."
I'm not sure how I'm supposed to get over that or how I'm supposed to reconcile Rose's happiness with his pain.
And then there's Donna, one of the best companions The Doctor ever had. She was just what he needed so of course he couldn't have her either. Cold comfort to know that your best friend lives but doesn't remember you or what she did for you. Same goes for Rose, I guess. It's all cold comfort, which seems to me to be no comfort at all. I can't hate The Doctor for what he did to Donna, she didn't want it, but he didn't want her dead. Better to not remember and live the fantastic life (all that character development! Just gone! Ugh) then have no life at all. Better for him to know that at least she's alive even though he's lost her too.
There should be rules for companions. Rule Number 1 should be never tell the Doctor Forever. It won't happen. Notice that Martha, who made no promises, managed to walk away from all of that...
What really gets me is that quite a bit of this Ten did to himself. He makes the hard choices, he makes the plans, he tells people what to do and he's absolutely convinced that if anyone is going to sacrifice anything or be alone, then it has to be him. The Doctor is far too familiar with sacrifice, always has been methinks and I'm wondering if the Time Lords knew that little factoid and used it to get him to be the one to press the button and sacrifice his entire world and people.
There were many things to think about in this episode.
Like the fact that RTD seems rather fond of using characters and props that were just lying around and working them into the script as major plot points. You can't tell me when the Doctor first got his hand lopped off that RTD said "aha, we'll lop off his hand and down the road we'll turn it into a new Doctor! Perfect!" And the Face of Boe as Jack... Puh-lease.
All I asked of RTD for this episode was for Rose to live and for my little shippy heart to not be broken into pieces. She lived and regardless of the fact that she has A Doctor with her, my shippy heart is quite shattered. I'm just now trying to figure out how to put it back together again.
And this is the part where people point fingers and call me a bit of a hypocrite for writing up reactions when I have seen the episode yet. (In the interests of full disclosure, I have also never seen Doomsday nor Last of the Time Lords. Someday I may watch Doomsday, but I think Tinkerbell!Doctor is enough to put me off the other one.)
In fact, I haven't seen much of season 4 at all. I tend to wait till a season is done before I watch something as I don't care to be an emotional wreck waiting for the next episode, which ironically enough, happened anyways. I'm completely spoiled for everything that happened and even though
regala_electra tried (she being the one to spoil me) there are just some opinions of mine she can't sway. She knows which ones those are *g*With the whole spoiling thing, you wouldn't believe how difficult it was for me to find out what happened: My Aer Lingus flight from Shannon, Ireland wasn't even done landing yet and I had my phone out and was leaving desperate messages on
regala_electra's cellphone asking to know what happened, as I didn't think I'd be able to survive the 45 minute bus ride home with all that suspense hanging over my head. I had fully intended to spoil myself rotten in Limerick but "high winds" had knocked out the internet service for the entire region and as it was a Sunday, they weren't expecting it to be fixed until Monday. I coped by foisting three seasons of Doctor Who off on a pilot who expressed a remote amount of interest in the show. He learned to fear the power of Fangirls that day. And then there's this bit of completely random: Russel T. Davies thinks Amy Winehouse would make a great Doctor
Make of that what you will.
